is it the end?

i am officially out from my DPI role. no guilt, no shame, no regrets. there is only peace, joy and a sense of relief. although i know there is much work to be done in the ministry, i understand that the Lord is also teaching me that i am not almighty and i am merely a human. my strength had been my weakness. i care too much and is always willingly to go that extra mile but often i neglect my actual ability in doing things. i overstretch, over commit. in the end guilt set in whenever i feel that i had not done enough or worst still... didn't do what i ought to!

i am really glad to had spent my time learning from the expert in prayers. got to know a few mighty woman of God and they really impact me to some extend. =) no point naming them since they won't know the existence of this blog. just like angels in disguise they had touch me and ministered to me. they may never know, cuz i had never shown. i was too reserved. anyway, i will tell them when i meet them in heaven! (pls listen to the song that is looping now! my absolute fav!)

so...back to the topic title... is it the end? NO! its the start... the start and the birth of a A-star SP! i will lead my Father's sheep just like He had wanted Peter to do when He drew Peter back to Himself. "Peter, do you agapao me?"... .....

"Esther, do you agapao me" ...
"Yes Lord, You know me, i phileo You. Lord... complete my love for You. So that i may agapao You. Lord Jesus, let me proudly without fear take on the much delay role of being that shepherd. no more aborted SB, no more miscarriages... :) "