irrational thinking

i thought for a long time, 'should i write this entry in the group blog or should i keep it in my personal blog?' finally i decided to keep it here for my own reference. afterall if may cause some misunderstanding if the group see it and interpret it wrongly.

recently i recieved an email regarding the reshuffling thing sent out by someone from my group. he addressed it to all the group leaders and i was not CC or to. i felt that i was left out and my position as the leader was not respected. (can you hear/ see all the pride of mine at work?!) initially after reading the email, i was not at all bothered by it as of my usual 'bo-chap' behaviour. then somehow it brewed within and i felt something. i still have no idea why i felt that way. PRIDE! it must be that!

for most that know me well, i will normally post or tell others my problem only when i had finally come in terms with it or settled it. as usual, i am ok with it already. i confirm that it was pride what was at work. logically speaking, reshuffling is the entire class problem therefore everyone has every reason to do what he/she wants to do. i have no reason to get upset over stupid little things like that. plus i know the guy, he is not that sort of chap that will do things on purpose to make others miserable. haha... maybe he might be but at least that is my idea of him. i choose to believe in the goodness of every human being, although this naive thought did land me in some heartaches in the past. =)

my learning from this .... PRIDE-no how humble you thought you are already there is still some left in there!