why i became a nurse (double entry from vox)

in respond to twinstars' and yishan's recent post on their choice of career; i too, want to share how i became a nurse. =) its going to be 1 weepy and lengthy post!

yishan's ambition was a nurse during her kindergarten years. so was mine. on my exercise-book, i drew a nurse and told of a story of how i wish to help people that are sick, get better and make them smile. but my colouring was terrible. cuz my mom didn't sit beside and help me complete it (ya right blame everything on my mummy! =P) and all my white colouring pencils was stained yellow (it always happen and i don't know why!!! argh!!).

as i grew much older, sibling rival set in. my elder sister, the dilligent one in the family, was always in the best class in school. going up on stage during assembly time was like her part-time job!!! receiving prizes, performing plays, going on debates, blah blah blah. i was the witty one, always in trouble. every teacher knew my mom! my mummy would come to school and talk to my teachers almost daily! her favourite sentence to them was "if she is naughty, just cane her! i will even provide the cane!" so naturally my neighbours, relatives and strangers even loved to tell me to behave myself more and learn to be as dilligent as my sister. even the store-keepers at the wet market would tell me tales of how my sister well behave was "she used to hold you by the hand and buy things from me but u will always try to break free and mess up my display. blah blah blah " *puke* (yes, now thinking of it still makes me want to puke!)

when my sister went into an all girls' school, i chose mixed-school for my psle posting! (haha... also my results were not that great to squeeze into an all girls' school! =P) i got in and did a 5yr worth of secondary education. at that point my path and my sister was difting futher apart. it was then, i realised that i can do very well in science while my sister sucks at it! haha... at last!!! something i am better than her! while she needs to memorise everything, i could catch on to a concept and download into my brain real fast. =P i decided to venture into areas that i knew i can do well in! after my Os i went into the 3 month program in a pre-u. i want to do pure science (chemistry) but SHIT! i was an N level kid so my science wasn't PURE! i had no choice but to fall back to poly. =(

in poly, i did chemical process technology. i was proud of myself, cuz i was among the few that was doing pretty well in my maths and all those balancing of equations and calculating of atoms and electrons stuff. (don't ask me now! i can't remember liao! haha...) my friends and i wanted to pursude a degree, post diploma but i had a 3 yr bond to serve. =( cuz i took the government's tution grant. anyway i went on to work, in a paint company. all my sophisticated anlysising skill was not put to good use due to the natural of my work. =( slowly i lose faith in my strength! my other friends (those that seek my help in school) were doing much better than me, dealing with more high-end machines and given better opportunity while i was... *sigh*

there was a trying period of seeking God and searching for the real calling in my life. and as i always joked- 1 day i got a phone call from God and He said "esther go be a nurse!" although the phone-call was unreal, the calling was real. at the same time SMCP opened, i was given a 2nd chance. =) (JESUS IS A GOD OF 2ND CHANCES, as my pastor always say) so... here i am ... fufilling my childhood dream (maybe it was a dream that God implanted into me since i was born?!) and answering my calling in life.

i have no idea if i will indeed move to other countries or do mission-medical aid as i had always told my friends. but i think i am open to go wherever He will lead me. =) this is my lengthy story. so interesting, right? =))