affected? nah... (long entry)

the party happened. i spend doubled the amount planned for. but honestly, i have no problem with it. i love party. i to host people at my place for gathering and seeing people have fun, enjoying themselves, thrills me. makes me happy too.

money? hmm... honestly if i had went out dinning maybe i would had spend that amount or more? so i have no heart pain in that area.

my heart was a little dented yesterday evening....

background- someone was leaving the workplace (internal transfer to another ward). another person wanted to do a farewell but without spending the ward fund. at the same time there was a 'party' that was long dued. the long dued party was suppose to be thrown by those who had been confirmed and promoted to SN1. so the 'another person' just pointed arrow to me and wants me to arrange for the party so we can do the farewell together. day and night i was being asked "when will the party be?"

so i called a malay staff to help me cook (to make it hala) then i sms those recently promoted SN1 to inform them about the party and asking them to contribute $$. only the chinese replied. (MIND U! I DON'T HAVE ANY ISSUE WITH NON-CHINESE!) so i went ahead thinking that i will collect the $$ from the non-chinese after the event. after all silent is normally considered as consent.

night before the party. i call the malay staff to reconfirm if she is ok with the cooking and what can i expect from her? then she told me some shocking news! the non-chinese had told her not to cook! they told her that they don't want to contribute to the party thus telling her not to cook/ let the party happens! i was really pissed! come a point i even told the malay staff, forget abt cooking. just go and enjoy ur off day. i will handle the party myself. but the malay staff in all her kindness said 'never mind lar. i can help u cook.' i was very thankful. honestly if it was not for those muslim staff, i really can handle with hala requirements! but i think i need to be fair with the rest - eating right?

so the food part was settled. but still i was so disappointed with those that had 'acted' behind my back. shouldn't they come forward and tell me themselves if they don't want the party?! or can't contribute?! rather they are under cutting me and showing no respect!! i am not demanding them all bow to me and worship me but at least sms me their reply lar. think i am so free to call them 1 by 1 meh?

so i sms all those non-chinese stating that "i am disappointed with them and that i would really appreciate them telling me if they are not for the party rather than going ahead and tell my 'supplier' not to supply to me (cook food)!" in terms of relationship or even by the book, such actions are really not tolerable!! honestly such action are really no, no!! i could bring it to higher heights but i am just too tired to argue. so i prayed for God to avenge my grief.

after that sms to the non-chinese. a couple replied. Ai said she is not against the party but she can't contribute cuz her is $$ tight. Fiz said she is ok, she don't mind chipping in. M replied this "1stly pls get it rite we den ask her nt 2 cook...she told me she's nt free 2 cook n if like tat, nt 2 force herself.. i couldn't contribute cuz gt sum prob 2 settle. dun worry i wun eat de food cm cuz i dun pay for it.. niwae congrates on ur sn1"

perhaps, i really have some 'xin bing' with M so i might be reading it the wrong way. but this is how i felt:
1- M is telling me, its my fault for troubling S for cooking for me
2- she thinking that just b'cuz i am promoted to sn1, i must shout and tell everyone abt it with a party

anyway, i am hearing different stories from different pple. i am telling this story with a netural feeling. i am not bothered by who is 'against' or 'for' me. i am telling this story cuz lots of people are puzzled regarding certain things. *force smile*

lesson deprived from this?! there are some people who are just meant to be acquaintance while some others as friends. i am just very glad for those that i call friends (hahaha... although i secretly thinks i am just their acquaintance) =) ending the day with a chit chat with my idol who once again preach abt the fun and goodness of wind surfing. =) i love B...C, Sue and all those reading this. =)