suppressing myself

its weird how God comforts and how things turn out to be. the blog just don't seems to be able to publish online. maybe my dear PaPA in Heaven don't want me to feel that terrible? He is my comforter...

My destiny and purpose is beyond NYP. i know where it is so i must learn to focus on the yet to come, i am nothing but only a passerby on this planet earth. i was created in His image and blessed with His love, my home is in the Heaven with dancing and songs of praise. life can bring me lows and highs but my PaPa is the constant. He is the same yesterday, today and forever more. its a sunday for crying out loud! its my PaPa's special day with me. i shall not cry anymore, unless it is tears of praise, of joy and worship.

my dear friends (u know who u r) reading this, i am fine. stepping in faith is not just leaving the past and comfort zones, it is about taking new challenges. challenges that makes u even wonder about urself. *sigh*...


(Ecclesiastes 1:12-18) Wisdom Is Meaningless
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I, the Teacher, was king over Israel in Jerusalem.
I devoted myself to study and to explore by wisdom all that is done under heaven.
What a heavy burden God has laid on men!

I have seen all the things that are done under the sun;
all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind.

What is twisted cannot be straightened;
what is lacking cannot be counted.


I thought to myself, "Look, I have grown and increased in wisdom more than anyone who has ruled over Jerusalem before me; I have experienced much of wisdom and knowledge."
Then I applied myself to the understanding of wisdom, and also of madness and folly, but I learned that this, too, is a chasing after the wind.

For with much wisdom comes much sorrow;
the more knowledge, the more grief.