losing trust...

a few hours ago... i caused a friend to lost trust in me.
sad... cuz i like to be liked by others.
although i think i know this friend of mine, he is the sort that will still befriend me but mentally make a note not to trust me on certain things again.
i don't blame him, if i was him i did do the same too.
maybe being a woman makes me more sensitive to things... but i just don't feel right...

i am wondering should i say sorry.
he is not angry so do i still say that?
afterall its over now. and if i do say sorry will he feel like i am pushing it?
argh...

so in conclusion...
my dear friends, please don't tell me any secrets!
its too much for me to bear. keeping a secret is like carrying a bag filled with rocks!
as an ex-expert in lying...its worst then keeping up with a lie!
its heavy and sometime painful.
its like knowing the truth of something yet when others mistook that certain thing, you can't fight for the truth.
cuz if you do, you leak out the secret but if you don't, you are almost like agreeing with the lie.
argh... its a rip in the heart!
so please my dear friends spare me the pain and spare yourself the hurt... of lossing trust in me....
*sob sob*