我不会忘记您地

in a way, today is the last day for my class and course.
although its only thur and there is tomorrow (fri), the feeling is such...
tomorrow is a half day for my class and we will not be having any gathering/ farewell on.
so today's gathering is the last and final one...
tomorrow, i will start to disengage from the relationship...

why do i need to do that? can't we just continue to be friends and stay the way we were?
its a self defence way of protecting myself, which i had sort of practice it for years.
if the relationship continue to be so close but not having to see each other as much as i would hope for... it will be such a terrible experience for me. =(
and since i don't enjoy lengthy phone conversation and shopping spree...
it pretty hard to remain in touch and maintain the level of intimancy that we have now...

sometime i will look back and regret the great friends that i had lost touch with...
even now i think i can count with my fingers just about how many friends i have. ='(

but i am sure i will never forget this batch of wonderful and interesting people that i crossed path with these past 2 years. we shared joys, laughters and moments of hostility. there were the in-groups and the out-groups, there were the comparing and the conforming and there were the many grumbles that we shared and the politics that were played... i will surely remember all of these.

3 years bond... after that different individuals will be out doing different things... some will be moving to Perth or other countries, others aiming to be a air-stewards, turning into medical equipment/ drugs sales-personal and yet others targetting to move into Senior levels in the healthcare... we will once again be separate individual striving in the world out there but there will always 1 thing left common in our core being... the experiences and memories of these 2 years of training and mugging...

I LOVE YOU...SUB GROUP 4 *sob* @}--;-