lots to tell...

there are lots of things i would love to blog about but it may just take a little time to blog all of them. 1st i will blog about my low self-esteemm.... which is why i had not been blog-ing for the past few days.

after being exposed to some classic blog sites i came to a conclusion that i am not good enough... in comparison to others... =(

1. the way i express myself is not at all interesting! if my blog was a comic book, its only good is for the auntie in the market to wrap her mangoes with!
2. my topics are so boring. its all daily rumbles! it does not contribute to the growth of any individual reading it nor does it makes intelligent remarks on the situations of the world.
3. i am not a "chiam" person. i am simply superifical and i don't like it at all. i envy those that love reading non-fiction. their knowledge and depth of understanding/ discussion makes me feels like an idiot!

of cuz to resolve such problem is to read widely, be more mature and to be more informed of the daily events/ reports in the newspaper- which will improve my language and also my simple mind! easy to say but to cultivate a habit now at the age of nearly 30 is pretty tough... plus i am so LAZY! its a terrible combination! SHIT! but i want to change it!!! i want!! i must!! i will!!!

therefore task 1 is to be more dilligent in practising my keyboard! shit... *grumble* i had not been doing so for the past days!! (*$^!&*%&^(*&*%# *angry with myself!*