post 3... lots to tell...

i am sad and scare... ='(

passing out soon... PRCP posting is not out yet and the possibility of being posted to different wards with my regular kakis (friends) is sky high. i am sad and scare.

i am sad that we will have to part ways and the next time we meet again will be "hi" and "bye". the thrill of meeting each other will be so high but when we want to talk to each other... we might have to say "sorry leh. but my break time over already. talk another time ok?" and that other time may never come again. ='(

i am scare. that's nature since it will be a new and different environment. i had choosen a brand new ward to be posted in and passed out in so it will be double hard for me to adapt to the people, system, culture and layout there. what if the people are prejudice towards acc. students or chinese or fat people or... what if i am unable to communicate with the patients, staff, doctors, relatives,etc?! what if i screw up big time on the medication, calling for TCU/porter/diet... and make lots mistake?! i am so scare!!

my current posting had not been able to make me more confident but in fact i am more unsure of myself already! ='( i scare............. *tremble*