...I will never leave you nor forsake you...Joshua 1:5

my God is great and loving. He loves me despit my stubborness, my undeserving-ness, etc. But the importantance of it all is that He is an ever-loving Father, Friend and Counsel. =)

my 1st few days in my current posting, i was all alone! the only NYP student in that station and that shift. being a reserve and shy person (when i meet with new people/ environment) i had nobody to talk to!! *soB*

when others are worried about taking cases and handling demanding i/c; i was happily doing junior work with no pressure (cuz there is someone else fighting to do everything!) and my i/c was ultra super nice!!! but i was alone, had no friends and my preceptor was not around. my problem was more of an emotional emptiness. i told my friends that the best and happiness time of the day are the break-time where i get to meet them at the canteen. =( it got to me so bad that i spent my friday evening out (til 0000hr+) with a friend just to get some comforting.

then during the weekend service, i told my dear Father in Heaven that i am so lonely and stuff. after serving, friends prayed for and along with me. my prayer request was simple and might even seem childish "to have friends in the ward".

came monday... before going to work, i decidedthat i will be happy and smile to everyone in the ward. i will be pro-active in soughting out friends and try to accomplish my posting objectives (heck care what others might be whispering about me). 1 hr into my shift... i met an old friend Mr Goh!! =) he was my ex-cell host and his wife was sort of my match-maker! haha... so happy to see him. although we aren't so close close sort, seeing a familiar face is such great comfort!

then tuesday comes.... we had a tutorial session for all students. i get to see everyone (students) again and spend 2 hrs plus together! after that we even went for tea together! heehee... (duno tell my i/c!) and after 1hr+ i met someone from church again! this time is P.Sab and err... another person working in church one....err...but can't remember her name. hehee... that 2nd person so cute, she doesn't know me but then found me familiar so after looking at my name tag she said "oh ya, Esther. no wonder i found you so familiar." i was like... "haha... u know me meh?" =P (in my heart lar) they were there to see a patient. but seeing familiar face is ++ to my feel good, happy bank liao...

so in conclusion... my Daddy in Heaven might not had verbally told me "hang in there my child" nor physically stood by me and gave me pats on the shoulder. He is nevertheless there with me. at times i may doubt His love or His pressence in my life, He is never slow to show me He cares for me and will always be there for me. =)

I AM SO BLESSED BECUZ HE LOVES ME! amen....