小的小的辛福
some patients are a blessing to have. some patients are a pain. maybe they are in pain or simply uncomfortable or even scare. but nursing is a job and with ever job is the common complains of having to do this and that.
i am no saint. i am a human with emotions too. =( emotions that i am ashame of. no..its not lust or greed but its anger and disappointment. i am ashame of having these 2 emotions as a nurse. i am angry with a patient for the number 5th time she call for the nurse, i am angry that the patient wetting the bed after we had painstaking changed her bedsheet for the 3rd time in the short-span of 3hours and i am angry with the patient that demand the nurses' attention whenever we walk pass her. i am disappointed at the patient who is suppose to be able to help herself but insisted that nurses adjust her pillows and cover her with blanket, i am disappointed with the patient who knowing that its for her good that some procedures to be done on her but refused, i am disappointed relatives being so ever demanding even when they know very well how busy and much the nurses are trying to accommodate to their insatiable demands. (the list can simply go on and on...)
people see nurses as caring, loving and so ever patient. but but... i am not. whenever i found myself getting angry and disappointed, i found myself so ashame of myself. where is the love for the people? where is the patient and the understanding that i ought to display unto the people under by care? perphaps if the patient: nurses ratio reduces to 1:6, i will be the most friend and lovely nurse available. i will touch my patients' hand daily and sing songs to them. i will explain to them the different drugs that they are taking and how to better improve their health. but i can't.
when the feeling of being so angry and disappointed overwhelm me, i seek for a little comfort. a little hug, a lovely song, a wonderful 'chicken-soup' story, the Word and Promise of the Lord and a great big dose of tv-love story. then i will believe and renew my faith in love. that the world is filled with love and i too am capable of loving and being love. yes... i need my 小的小的辛福 too.
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2 comments:
Nurses are human too, and thus are bound by emotions too. My take is if we dun feel angry, we won't be able to appreciate what happiness is, if we dun feel disappointment, we would never be able to appreciate fulfillment. It's ok to let your self get angry and then later think abt why u feel that way, find the source and try to do something abt it....jia you jia you!
THANKS =)
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