learning curve

i must say that i lead a wonderfully blessed life. never do i have to suffer hardship that was beyond my endurance level. often in my work place, or in times of schooling, i will always find people that are nice, caring and pastoring. err... pastoring is like a person that watches over and often lead and guide others onto the right path/ direction. lucky for me, i never have great big hic-ups in my nursing (barely 1 yr) too.

while some of my peers face active resus and difficult/ complex orders from the doc. i was often on the safe side. the orders are rarely tough and even if it was there will always be nice missies to teach me. although i am happy that my life is so smooth, i often admire those that had been "jinx" cuz they seems to learn so much more than me. =(

just like today's roll call. jiejie asked a question regarding IDC "should we change the IDC after bladder washout?" i really really have no idea wat's the right answer!!! it was never taught in school!! and never in my life as a student nurse did i ever seen such procedure. i only know idc can prevent the sore from getting worse. =( *sob sob*
so when night girls told me to just keep the idc and let team to decide, i took her reasoning and didn't bother to question her nor read thru the past report. now i know, 3-way idc must change after washout and when people pass report must stand by the stand and read it word for word! (no wonder YiSxxx always do that)

then there was the other thing that i learnt today. don't think the words of jiejie are GOD's!!! just because jiejie said something, i acted upon it immediately. our dear HO thinks that jiejie said the most sensible thing too. so i put up the form, she filled in the form and i faxed it. i forgot to let jiejie check it before faxing so... in the end... it was a BIG issue!! so jiejie said "i only suggest for the team to discuss and decide" so... in the end who fault was it?! MINE lor... i am ok to take the load of the fault. cuz i learnt a BIG BIG lesson from this event that i am glad i did. although i am not excited that i had learnt this "new" thing, i am nevertheless glad that i had learnt something from it.

finally the last lesson that i had learnt today. don't just take the words of the msw (med/ ncc) for what they said over the phone! i rem answering a call from msw (peiFxx) saying that pt was for BVH after discussion with pt's consultant but she was too busy to come up to ink up. so she said to document it down what she had said. so i did. i remember hearing her said HOSPITAL but in the end jiejie said and asked a very rational and logical question "hospital is for sub-acute care. but look at the pt, does she need sub-acute/ rehab/ respite/ hospice care leh?" then it hit me!!! i must had done a wrong wrong wrong thing!!! so i tried to flip the notes hoping the msw had came up yesterday to ink up her conversation with dr.F and what she told me... but NO!!! so i was the 1 that start the problem and so i bear it. of cuz if i had let jiejie check the form before faxing it, the beating will be more bearable.

so in summary what is the 1 BIG lesson that i learnt?!?! DON'T TRUST OTHERS SO MUCH!! MUST TRUST MYSELF AND EVERYTHING MUST BE BLACK AND WHITE BEFORE PROCEEDING!!!

although kena these beating, i still like this jiejie cuz she talks sense. of cuz, not everything she say i will take in now, just like eating fish... must know how to spit out those uncleaned scales and pokely bones. i think i had grew more mature by 10% today!