grumble...

i miss being in the old team where there are always pple to help each other. now in this place, i am on my own. if my jr. is not a sn, i have nobody to help me and i am expected to help the jr. *sniff* its the 1st time in my course of work that i am driven to the point of wanting to cry!!

why leh? cuz...

b1-broncoscopy in the early morning @ 9am - while i am still busy giving iv.
b3-needs lots of TLC and is always inquistive in what meds she is taking, why need to take blds, etc
b6-naughty girl today! scold student SIAO and then threaten to pull out NGT!
b7-problem case. Dr comes in every 1-2hrs to order new things; since 8 to 12, i hardly was able to touch the casenote to do proper changes, urgent ct lar, lung perfusion test lar, dil lar, transfer to ica lar, 24hrs urine collection lar, iv this and there, the list keeps growing!
b12-another problem case. round so late... Y bear didn't do the changes proper. and even dare ask me to give IV D50% + insulin!! *faint*

need to call msw for b2,b6,b9,b11.

iv for b1,b3,b4,b7(+++),b8,b10,b12(++)
s.c for b8,b9,b10(depends)
h.c for b7(2hrly),b8(tds+10),b9(tds+10),b10(tds+10),b12(4hrly)

need to call for appt for b4-perm cath insertion,b13(echo,holter)

need to call to arrange HD for b4,b13

but lucky some Drs are nice enough to offer to take the blood to prevent the bloods from being delayed in desp.

still i spilled work over to the pm girl to follow up (she must hate me lots lots)
b7-send to ica, send to ct brain, to call lung perfusion-nuclear meds. long story short...pm girl kena F* by the ica side.
b9-dressing not done a/w W.I.
b12-bladder washout not started, 3-way cath. not inserted (cuz no stock and ever attempt to loan- shit!! even when i tried to call to loan, the uro ward didn't have enough to spare! shit shit shit...) albumin didn't arrange + form not ready. stat dose D50% + insulin still not given!
b13-PCT didn't arrange (cuz GXM form not back yet), blood consent not up.

out of these 4 spilled over, 2 of the case belong to Y bear!! i am so hating him!! back to his country he ought to go!! ok... sorry for being racist!

i am not trying to make excuses but i think its really unfair to pull me to this team! =(

last time when i 1st came to this ward, i struggled but i was always positive abt it cuz i was the one that request for it. so no matter how tough the learning was, i took it upon myself that it was my choice as i ought to bear the fruits of it. but now... i found myself blaming this and that and everyone! *sigh* that is bad... plus the culture and practise is so different from my ex-team! make me so frustrated!! i seriously prefer the staff in my ex-team, so by the book and things are clear on who is to do what. can u imagine, the ND not topping up the sticky labels and those forms (x-rays/ bio chem/ etc)?! and then i heard its the job of the pm girls! huh?!?! wat the... i rest my case! damn it!! then just because i adhere to my ex-team culture i kena suan! F* lar!! i realised i am sterning to the "u don't like me, i don't have to like u too" behaviour again!! and this time with the entire new team!! *sigh* i am expecting a terrible time here!!! if it continue, i think i might request for a transfer out to resp-B2 or DIM-B2 liao... *sad*