God is an answering God!

my God is an answering God! although He may not call me on the phone or sms the answers i so wish to hear nor will be email it to me, He never fails to show up in His wonderful timing!

just like the time when i grumble why no cabs leh after waiting for minutes! He gave me a mercs cab! hahaha... and when i so so sad by tiny things and disappointed by people and myself, He encouraged me by being still and allowing me to pour out my feelings before showing my the light at the end of the tunnel. i simply love it when my Daddy in Heaven take it slow rather than fussing over me and rushing to advise me on the 'should do's". i am thanksful so ever am! but being 100% human, i would like my answer FAST and CONFIRM-GUARANTY CHOPPED! sound funny but trust me, it can be really frustrating waiting for an answer sometime!

those time of waiting makes me jumpy and frustrated. often when the wait was too long to bear i would make my own decision and move by my logical thinking. but God's ways are not mine! =( so i had often been fallen from grace, hurting myself and others in the result of not waiting long enough. after being hurt times and again, u would think i would had learnt the lesson well but ... no really lor. =(

recently church released a list of mission impart trip dates to various countries. out of the many Taiwan caught my eyes! reason can be of the following:
1- i prefer to speak in mandarin, more confortable, although i can't read and write well!
2- haha... i love watching taiwan drama! haha... esp. love SHE, rannie and many others!
3- it will surely be easier to find our way ard as compared to India right?!

so after a brief discussion with a few good people, we said to try to get leave for either one of those slot for Oct or Nov. i tried to....

i went to check with my nursing manager if i can change my leave to suit either 1 of those dates. but the best/ nearest i can get was only 1 week slot of leave from 14 to 21 Oct. but the trip is fixed from 11 to 21 Oct! *sob* so close but still so far.

so i prayed for God to arrange my shift to be in such a way that i may be on night shift days before and on sleeping day on 11 and days off on 12 and 13. in that way i may be 'free' from 11-21 Oct! i went to ask my nursing manager if that is possible she said no promise. =(

without a confirmation i dare not even go to the church counter to ask for more information! but i was so so sad. cuz it is the 1st time since my church started these mission impact trips that i am really really interested in getting involve. (sad to the power of n!)

after a week or so, my nursing manager came out with a new schedule- perm. night!
that means the staff on that perm night will be doing night shift; for every sun to wed then off til the next week and start the entire cycle again. this rooster will be on for 3 months! and i had previously volunteer to be on perm night!!! so when i was confirmed by my nursing manager to be on the perm night, i immediately took out my calander and alas!!! it was as i had hoped!!

i will be on 'off' from 11 to 21 oct!!!! YIPEEE!!!! God is an answering God isn't He?! although there are lots of other concerns being on perm. night but at least there is this one great thing out of it!

God give me strength and joy in all that i do, please! Thank You, God! =)