1 big secret

1 big secret that i am about to share with you.

i come from a family with history of sensitive nose. my brothers are nose-bleeders and my uncle is suppose to have that too. thus my uncle often change his job due to this problem. recently i am starting to feel the heat. i think i am loosing my sense of smell. if you had watch 'jewel in the palace' then you will know that 'chang kim' lost her sense of taste and had great problem in carrying on with her life.

the sense of taste and smell are 2 great attribute that helps a person enjoy food. well, maybe its God way of helping me reduce my food enjoyment thus reducing my desire to eat. hmm... although i might sound like i am ok with it, actually i am a little fearful and a little sad. fearful as i am not sure why i am having it, is it a tell-tale sign of a tumor or is it caused by my sinus problem? what should i do? sad as it had dampen my enjoyment of life. i can no longer smell the sweet roses and when my friends ask me if i smell anything weird i can answer; in fact i will wonder if i am the one that is smelling weird to them.

sigh..