a BAD BAD BAD day to mark the 1st week of 2007!!

start the year right? well, mine did not start of on a very right note. =( i was working through the entire new year holidays. =( making it worst, patient admitted during this period aren't the easiest to deal with! of cuz, it makes perfect sense right? if one is not too well but still can stand it, who would want to spend their holidays in a hospital?

being the ever so optimistic person, tough work and demanding patients can never kill my passion in work and people but .... but.... recently something happened. it affected me so bad that i was thinking of forging MC the next day in order to 'escape' from a reality that i am not willing to face. yes... its a regarding work...

if you had been reading my blog, you will hear me grumble about patients but never about co-workers. but today i am going to do just that. (what a way to start my 2007's 1st blog entry!!)

i will call my co-worker D. D and i 1st got to know each other during our school-attachment time. i never like working with her. reason being that i find her a bit selfish and i can never communicate with her. maybe i had never tried enough? i think its the chemistry... we just can't click. i grumbled to my friends the day i knew that we are in the same workplace. the cool chaps told me to take it easy and reminded me that its alright, just treat her professionally as a co-worker; no need to be friends. i know myself, it tough... cuz i am not that sort of person.

so the fateful day came when we have to work in partnership. the entire morning was crazy! i was sponging and trolley-showering those bed-ridden patients. totaling up to...

• 5 sponging
• 4 trolley bath
• 5 tube feeding
• 1 dressing and
• spent another precious 30 mins coaxing 1 old lady to try to eat her oats!

of course, i am not saying that she had it easier than me. she had done...

• 9 toilet showering
• 4 hypocount
• served diet
• assist in 1 procedure (~30-40mins)
• 4 tube feeding
• took 4-6 tubes of bloods

looking at the list, it seems like i had indeed been skiving huh? maybe that what she had thought as well. thus when the clock strike 12.30pm, when the evening shift girls came in, i had just barely completed my last trolley bath (gosh!! the patient is mega big size lor... imagine me x1.5 ADL total dependent!!) i was dead tired and worn out only to realise that all my charts had not been updated at all!!! and we got to pass over report (change shift) already!! the afternoon girl was chasing for the charts as she too need to do her work. but i had yet to update the charts!!! when i say yet to update, i meant from as early as 8am in the morning!!! *faint* in my mad rush to complete my charts i had to make sure i complete my 2pm tube feeding for 4 patients! how?!?!?! in the end, i told the afternoon girl (a friend) to take the chart 1st and i will update when i done with my feeding. thankfully she agreed!

rushing for time, i prepare all of my 4 patients' feeds together. it doesn't harm the patients at all but certainly not the right practise in terms of protocol and standard. but damn those inflexible shit! i am pressing for time and my patients are hungry!!! if a person is dying do we still go by the procedure of 1st this than that?! damn it... if we ask the instructors their answers will be YES!! cuz it is to ensure this and that shit. *faint* so... (like how Uncle R said) lets cut to the chase... i was CAUGHT BY a CI!! she spoke to our ward nurse turn CI and asked her to speak to me. spoke to me she did but the thing was... CI-trainee understood the mad rush and tried to understand what and why before telling me off. (that's what a good and real CI ought to do!!)

when i told her what was going on, i felt like tearing!!! really it was the 1st time in my entire working life!! although i didn't work for 20-30 years but at least i never had to face this sort of oppression in my life!! yes... i had been quite a blessed kid since day 1 of my existance.

the good show came after the mad rush! our manager called our team in and asked us how was it working in the new arrangement where both the room's jr ought to help each other. while the other replied ok, i replied i don't know. honestly if i did want to be a bitch i could have done that but since i decided to take up the Cross and be in this line, i rather not be an aggressive bitch. it was nearly 3.30pm when left the manager's room. my in-charge had a crazy day too discharging patients now she had to stay back to do post discharge audits; meaning she can't leave yet. i still have my charts to update so i can't too. so... i walk back to the rooms and alas! the students were doing their 3pm parameters!!! that means i got to wait till they are done to get my hand on the charts!!! i can't wait!!! the students are so slow!!! so i ended up taking parameters for the afternoon staff!! *faint*

Ms D came out and in her sweet dainty voice asked me "don't want to go home huh?" my reply? "i still got charts to update" i answered with a dark long face accompanied with angry tone and walk past her. i think she left after that but like i said i stay back to update my charts, took my 1st meal of the day at 4.45pm and shower.

i needed a friendly face. so i went to meet my dear ex-company people for dinner. i was dog-tired and was having a bad headache but the thought of meeting some nice people drove me to spend $$ to get cab to Jurong just for a dinner! when i got home, the headache had gotten worst so did the tiredness. after washing up i rested in bed and tried to watch some of my favourite drama to get some joy but it didn't help. so when my hubby asked me how was my day, the taps in my eyes started running. i whine and said i don't want to go to work tommorrow and how i was 'bully'. i think the whine was make worst after meeting my ex-company people cuz if i had stayed i would probly still be happy-go-lucky and happily minding my own projects while doing favors-helping out with other's projects.

ask me if i have regret leaving my ex-job for this career... i will still say NO. i still love the work but having lovable and nice people to work with is a bonus bonus bonus....